2005-07-20 - 1:01 p.m.
things are things
i’m always disappointed when i check my phone messages and there isn’t a message from someone at some art gallery saying they want to show my work. same when i check my mail. it really gets me down; however, somewhere in that brief feeling of lowness, i remember that i haven’t sent any examples of my work to any galleries. this pisses me off because i think to myself, “what am i waiting for?” then i have to admit to myself that i’m not really waiting for anything. i’m afraid of rejection. of course, i go throw the whole, “well, if they don’t want my work TO HELL WITH THEM!” scenario, and i DO feel that way; however, the fact is, having work shown in a gallery and making money kicks ass. i’d love to say, “money doesn’t matter!” but at this point in my life, i don’t have enough money to be able to say that. note to self: send slides to art galleries.
riding down lincoln avenue i noticed that the fortune teller who stopped me on the street last year or two years ago is out of business. didn’t she know? to think i totally almost believed her when she told me i gave off strong vibes.
